Not intended for public consumption. Do not eat blog posts.
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Q: What in the name of sanity is this?
A: See above.
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I just decided to start a website, with no particular goals or aim, just a hobby site doing whatever I feel like, and see how it goes.
Why start a blog in 2023 and further pollute the internet with my inane senseless ramblings? Well, I have a list for that…
- Dogs are too expensive.
I have some problems with routines and schedules and doing things on time. So some time ago I wanted to get a dog, thinking maybe having something else I needed to feed and walk and take care of might help me get my own life together a little bit more.
But… that didn’t happen.
I tried to buy a dog, then got scammed (Story for another time), then the excitement faded and I realised it was probably not a good idea anyway. Dogs are expensive and I don’t have money. They also give me anxiety and the consequences are too bad if I fail.
Besides… I feel like it would have been unfair to the dog…
So here we are.
2. I wanted to try fulfilling my childhood dream of being a fishpond celebrity.
I’ve always wanted to run a blog, but despaired that I realised that I wasn’t an interesting person. I didn’t do interesting things. I had nothing to blog about. And even if I did blog about some things, nobody would read it anyway… I got depressed, and gave up the idea.
Then, once I accepted that I was a boring person and nobody would care, I decided to do it anyway. Just to see if anything happened.
Hint: If you lower your expectations, it’s harder to get disappointed…
3. I can’t afford to go to therapy.
Honestly it’s mostly because I’m bored and needed another hobby, after I tried to turn my last hobby into a business… (both of them) and needed something fun and constructive to do that wouldn’t give me anxiety.
I also thought it could be fun to just use it like a journal and put honest thoughts and feelings up here (among other things). I’ll have to see what happens with that ‘honest’ part. I haven’t fully decided if all my honest thoughts should go up here, generally speaking I am believer in think before you speak… but I don’t always tend to do it very well, so we’ll see how this goes.
Anyway. This is an experiment, we’ll see how long it lasts…
If nobody reads it… who cares. I’m used to talking to myself.
I don’t really do people very well, so we’ll see if my anxiety gets the better of me. I might really regret posting this tomorrow…
Cheers.